When I started this blog I didn’t know what it would come to be. I started it as a young 16 year old struggling with a mental illness trying to come to terms with it and recovering from it with exercise and therapy documenting my triumphs and trying times.My goal from the beginning has always been to be honest, no matter what I was going through. I just wanted to have somewhere where I could be as authentic as possible and have a platform to express my real self on. And I’m so grateful to have had that and grow with that.
I never imagined inspiring people, making great friends on here and finding myself as a person through blogging. I was simply someone who wanted to have my space on the Internet to share my thoughts and my heart with the world. Now three and a half years later, I’m almost 20 years of age, fully recovered, studying journalism of all things at college/university (a decision inspired by this blog) and I now am confident enough to sit in front of a camera and make YouTube videos.
I’ve come to realise that I was never supposed to write the story forever. The word ‘run’ indicates movement; I was never supposed to define myself through running but I was supposed to run to where I needed to be, to become who I was meant to be. And the word ‘therapy’ derives from the Greek word for ‘healing’ and ‘minister to’ which is what this blog gave me in the sense of aid the healing of my heart, to be able to inspire you and ultimately shape me into who I am today.
Through narrating my whole journey of recovery and gaining strength from therapy and fitness on here I’ve achieved more than I ever imagined. Over the years I’ve been working hard towards being the person I wished to be, someone I envisioned who was strong and powerful, someone who would be able to stand up against my demons back then and recently I realised that I’m no longer running towards something anymore and this is because I’ve already become her.
The road never ends, it only becomes brighter. To anyone still in the midst of their own battle, take it as the chance to become your own hero. In life we will always have our triumphs and our downfalls, but we will always continue to go forward.
I’ve completed the story and finished the narrative. I think the biggest thing I’ve learnt over the three and a half years is to never be ashamed of being yourself. No matter what ugliness you may experience or shame you feel towards yourself; nothing is more true and beautiful that authentically and unapologetically yourself. Your soul is a compilation of fragments of your experiences, emotions and surroundings that you resonate with which create something beautiful in your entity and that is something to embrace and never feel shame to present to the world.
I thank all readers/followers/supporters who have resonated, been inspired and been supportive over the years from the bottom of my heart, thank you for making the most formative years of my life amazing. My aim in every post I’ve ever written was for you to be able to take something positive and apply it to your own lives and I’ve hoped to have done that and with that I wish you all nothing but the very best.
It’s been a good ride, Best, Tasha
(You can still keep up with me on my YouTube channel: LivingAsTasha and my site http://www.herindependenceofspirit.com)